Saturday, August 31
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Friday, August 30
just realised have been sayin i'll "update tml"
oh...hmmx maybe hees..
repelling from the so called addiction.
rehabilition is really working fine.
grades dropping. home sweet home only at night.
losing contact with friends? arrx. time seems to be running out.
have no life at all? depression?
wells. probably why we find comfort in blogs.
hais.
but WARNING: its highly addictable
its nice to know that someone out there who cares
will know whats going on abt u + give in her/his best to console
u. isn't that such a wondrous thing?! oh wells.
but hmmx... isn't it weird in another way....
hmmx. just suddenly lost my train of thought...
initially wanted to write more about this...but
guess its just gone. that tingling inspiration.....but hmmx.
to those out there who cares. i'd say... really thanx.
had a terrible moring. those tears. those yells.
those panic-toxins set in the bod.oh wells.
shan't go into details...reached sch still soggy w
weren't early too.oh wells. xxxx... anw...had celeb...
the star thingy was done .and looked nice.
rebecca's damn great. her dedication to doing ALL 39 of the stars.
just the night before.hmmx. hopefully..she wun be
as
a certain extent....well at least more dedicated [[sometimes[[
than some other *haiz* ppl ...
the whole celeb
was rather okies.fun dance sparked it off. and
hees. if only my classmates had been > enthu...mass was ...
as usual. love the songs they made us sing,
Sprit wings. Hold on to our dreams
so damn nice lorz. but was really saddened...
coz the people sitting around me weren't
exactly there. so anti lorx. haix. they are
just so unenthu. oh wells. haix.
then items put up by various pri + sec levels.
watching them perform made
me dawn back upon those times in primary sch...
where we had to come up with our
own items and the only thing the DM
did was to view it to give us approval.
it was so fun... haha. those days. so mad.
esp the one we did in p6...
**** oh wells. those were the days.
liked the s2 monitors + jp's item. hahas.
nice! despite watching it for so many times.
3 purity ...did well ... perharps rehearsal
was better. but it was qt difficult for them ...
ppl were getting restless. but ... cld see
they gave in their best. and it was good. =] .
had this BU judging thingy where everyone ...
every class paraded. guess THAT was a great move.
like it got the whole sch into the kinda SNG spirit
and hahas... my class.... did qt well for the frnt part
but..*yikes* bad coordination for the 2nd. hahas. was fun
though~.
had break. some miscommunication.
was rather .... *dready* as time went by den.
then loitered around the sch grd with xm,cy,yx for a while.
was "floatin" about. hahas. cun exactly who we were with.
break was rather long. but there were many things to do...
haix. den der was this part whereby the pmb had to gather
in fam lounge? initially thought it was to help them clean up.
but who knows... was to help in finishin the food?
had several helpings of almond jelly ...simply love it
lorx. haha. the strong smell and the tinge in it *hees*
went back class. duno what happened ther...
photo takin. cookie-eating. *haiX* neh get to eat the
cookies i ordered. bleahs hees.
den handed in that result slip. hahas. den tried going outta sch?
but took me + mich like more than half an hour b4 we really
left school. so happy... took pic with mrs ong, mrs hoo,
ms yeo, moy, evil, mich, wen, wen, min, wei, sar... hees.
but *urghs* some turned out blurry...bleahx.
primary school changed. so much. the tchrs. the infrastructure.
but still the tchrs whom i dearly missed were there.
really missed them. enjoyed conversing with them .
and hahas. duno why .. .lee lao shi had compliments
for me! haha. the CL tchr i had for p5 + p6 who criticized
me alot for my bad bad cL...praised me for my wittiness...
hmmx hees...
one of the conversations made me
think....like ..yah.......
all about combis and what one wld
do... i wanted bio so much. and i really wld want to take
theatre studies but ... the fact is i dun take biology nor
literature...seriously hope i wld be accepted in these streams in
JC [[that is if i can get in..*crosses finger*]]
shall go sign gbks.
am looking forward to tml's breakfast. but guess i starting to
really get really irritated by
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. am home. after all that loitering
with my pri schmate.. hahas. *toopid woman*
we were trying to look for someone ard the
neighbourhood.... the trip back was one
i didn't regret. enjoyed myself though i came
relatively late from school. met liting + limin, and
later lavernia, along w the nygh girls.
yikes! miss primary school days so so much lorx.
haha. especially the friends... *hees* though we have
like totally diverse, different characters.... we never
fail to be so so close...so able to speak our minds,
open our hearts out. and hees.*yikes..* the only bad thing about
them todayis ..their reluctance to take photo with me!!!
oh well. still wanna wish ahappy teachers' day
[8/31/2002] [00:00:00AM]
faced the threat of being disowned...
oh wells. cun slash wrist properly.
what a flop.
life's just playing b**ch again.
hate them when they do that
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Thursday, August 29
wows. my mum is so nice.
she's lettin me use the comp at such an hour.
and for the 1st time with buggin me..
she's lettin me stay awake.
and ..
i showed her my result slip already.
obviously it came back with nagginess.
and this question that i have now decided not to ans truthfully
till i attain a 'lower' score. the L1R5.
she asked me what 32 was.
and all i said was... its "i dunooo.."
arrx. siams now.
[8/30/2002]
faced the threat of being disowned...
oh wells. cun slash wrist properly.
what a flop.
life's just playing b**ch again.
hate them when they do that
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till
oh. guess what ? ms tan flared up again.
still cun believe
haix. haven showed my parents from result slip yet.
oh dies. ok. and like i got home around 940?
arrx. jus hope they ain't feelin pissed.
i really very scared nows.
oh wells. i guess i update tml.
shall start on tchrs' day gift
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Wednesday, August 28
oh wells.
sucks. got hm ard 8 +...
went with wendy + shijie to look for stuffs.
enjoyed myself though. *sniffs* was such a
bright 1000 watt bulb larx. but guess we all
had fun?! hmmx. haven pract maths ever since.
tryin to do geog + phy h/w now..in case that very
unreasonable ms tan flares up.
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Tuesday, August 27
both motivation and 'coaching'-wise....
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oh wows.
lemme tell u what.
i am the highest in class for L1R5 mans.
so darn smart right. arrx. reallie dunno how to tell my
parents. like what?! "daddy, mummy... i got the 'highest' in class?!"
oh wells. sucks. and den realised i haven start revising on my maths yet.
got remedial later. think i'll just pop by for 30 minutes b4 going off for
lishi meeting? wanted to go home earlier...den just remembered. haix.
duno larx. yesterday spent my whole evening looking for info + bloggin.
and planned to start on my maths aft that...and guess what ... i watched
the news with my mum ... and fell asleep... *sniffs* and din even wake up
earlier on any instinct. sucks. oh wells. hope the info are relevant and
we wld be able to go home relatively early today.
and oooh er... haven tot of the questions yet. *prays* the others haven
too... oh wells.
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If You Want To Be Seen,
Stand UP.
If You Want To Be Listen,
Speak Up.
If You Want To Be Appreciated
SHUT UP~~
Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.
He who loses money, loses much;
He who loses a friend, loses much more;
He who loses faith, loses all.
arrx. cun find any notes on ¾ç±¾´´×÷
shall jus use the drama camp's ...
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i am online...
oopsy. hees. am home! so early... compared to xxxx
lalas.. had maths trail facilitating. so spas. hees.
and the sec 1s i had where like.... so *pengs*..
very 'fragile' .. and kept complaining.
really very xxxxxxx oh wells.
hees. so glad i am home. found out some pretty abnormal
secrets from nat + vy. goodness man.
din know 3hope was really such a weirdy class.
oh wells. i wan play badminton!
and my sis offered me to.
isn't she sweet?!...
its time i work those
**tra lalla
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Monday, August 26
history was so so horrible.
hees. was thinking ...qt proud da myself.
din had any temptation to go online.
recess nows. hees. so sad.
the media player cun work ...
so der goes the practical magic..
oh wells. and dun understand why some ppl
jus care about how my blog is presented...
sorry if i spoil ur layout larx... but... **HMMmmPhz*
hmmx. seriously something wrong with my body clock nowadays. like yesterday i tried studying but inevitably fell asleep. maybe lishi meetin was tiring but i dun recall any yawn endeavours...we went swing yesterday...simply love it there.
swinged. and see-sawed. with wen ... hees. so fun. i want go back there again .... *bleahx* anw,.... as the story goes...
slept around 9++...and it was my mum who got me to go to bed... and. i woke up at a freaking 3.30am in the morn?! erms.
tried studying,...but guess was such a pig...and nearly was late for school...
[[woke up at 4.30 for geog...nearly the same case on sunday midnight cans.... arrx. freak. freakin myself out]]
okies... recess 's gonna end soon i gues..
tatas.
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"Peace is but a shadow of death,
Desperate to forget its painful past...
Though we hope for promising years
After shedding a thousand tears,
Yesterday's sorrow constantly nears....
And while the moon still shines blue,
By dawn, it will turn to scarlet hue...."
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Sunday, August 25
lost
hmmx. am back...
in school. somehow. i had the monday stones
whereby u stone?!
hmmx. am still ponderin over what they asked.
oh wells. maybe i am jus half alrite and half not.
no particular reason whatsoever..
bleahx. the period before english was so fun
hees. we were all gathered outside the
class... without stuffs....just facing the winds...
so shuangs... i love breezes
like just now... hees.
and the gauzes of wind broke one of the pots along the bridge.
and the threesome of us were there...
met bin, jing + ? ...den we were some sort involved
in some six some short 'debate'... oh wells.
and there were some misconception abt
XXX...and i guess someone wasn't that happy.
jialin's at my left...
and she's so so mean. dun wan to sign my gbk..
haix. school was qt okies.
geog was scary. the stuffs that i crammed din seem to come out
for the paper. really wonder how i wld do.
got history paper tomorrow..and it seems i have no mood to really care.
haix. yikes.
yesterday..
was in a midst of trying to cram geog +
helpin my sis choose her options for her sec school.
really seems like i have been a sucky sis. i duno. like her
choices were really limited. like even my mum wuz bent on the
tot of jus putting her for the normal stream?! like..
my other sis even suggestesd tech?! like what the...
***i really dun believe she's that bad lorx. what if..
she is a late bloomer.... arrX.
i really dunno. i want the good of her.
seeing her... so ... confidence-lacking and all?! i suck
empty talk cun do anything right.
its action that does it.
have i got the will to do it?!
why is it that its only possible for some but not this.
not this impt factor...
oh whatever. preachin within my mind again.
lacking courage...lacking words.
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